Thursday, April 28, 2005
Donnerstag- when the supermarkets close at 9
Finished the morning class already. The prof looks like a chinese fortune teller, and he sounds like one too. Argh I feel like I'm taking a repeat course in TWC. Ridiculous.
And my TWC grades are simply appalling. I am completely disgusted with them.
Schizer!
Went to Kronberg yesterday. It's located at the Appenzel Canton. I saw snow for the first time!! It was so cold on the mountain, especially with the helicopters whirring above us, and the wind slicing our cheeks bare. We had class in a lodge on the mountain, but it was still so cold inside. The lunch after that was just amaying. I live for free meals which they provide on trips like these, and in tea sessions with the Asia Term students. Seriously,
ich habe grosser hunger! We had hot fried fish, bratwurst, risotto, mac and cheese, both cold and warm salads, meatloaf, ham... Oohyeah!
Seur gut!
And then in the evening, Weiming and I went out for a run. I think everyone thought we were crazy cos it was drizzling, but I really needed to run the TWC blow out of my system. Bleah. The wind was pretty strong, and I think this is the only time I will ever take a run with a full track-suit. We felt so pro! Haha, ran for a good 50 minutes in the park and around Marktplatz before heading home. Gave the foundue dinner a miss (CHF16 is just too much to pay for some cheese and bread). So I ended up skipping dinner again. Owells, the weight is melting off me, that is one good thing about being here. Provided I don't do the binges, like I did yesterday. I ate a copious amount of chocolate and more than half a can of Pringles chips. Argh I hate grades and GPA. Bullocks!
The weather is supposed to be warmer now, the forecast said 20 degrees today.. But haha no way. I want to go to the playground I found with Kenneth the other day. The one on a hill, with wooden swings and treehouses. But nobody here wants to play there with me. I wish my Lulu was here, I know she would. And I miss Rox, knowing that she's about the only one who'd slack off in the useless classes I have here. Every single one of the Europeans in class lap up every word that rolls off the Prof's tongue, and copies page after page of notes. It's scary.. And when I walk about at Multergasse, and find shops that offer fantastic bargains, nobody wants to stop with me, and bear with my endless changing room antics- I miss Syl and Candice. And I miss insulting Zhong, and going RAAAAAA at poor Rogan Su. And when I get back to my little room, I miss bickering with my sister in the one we share. And I KNOW she is stealing my clothes back home, cos the first thing she said to me when I called home was 'Jie, your clothes rock!' Ahahaha
And did I mention that webmessenger is the greatest invention in the world?
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Greetings from St Gallen
Internet... Finally!
Its been 6 days since I arrived here... The weather is superb, and the scenery is just an overload of green. German is a real difficult language to pick up, and I feel like a deaf-mute sometimes with my overly enthusiastic hand signals and sign language attempts. Just had an intensive German crash course, and it is difficult!
Guten Tag! Ich heisse Celest. Sehr efreut! Ich komme aus Singapur. And then smile like a stupid tourist. Of course Ive also learnt to swear and order beer too haha..
Ein bier bitte! Du Schizer!Haha.. And while I'm not sneezing my nose off here, I am attepmting not to starve to death.. The food prices here are just crazy... Ugh one piece of plain Zopf bread for CHF2! Which is about SGD2.60! I've been eating plain bread for lunch, cos even the meat is too darned expensive to purchase. Yesterday night was a feast though! 5 of us had pizza, bratwurst, egg pancakes and strawberries for dinner. Ending off with the compulsory chocolate binge (which explains my neverending sore throat). I feel like a housewife, constantly putting my nose into looking for the best bargain, and because I cant read the German words very fluently, I end up buying mystery meat most of the time. Not that anyone minds anyway haha..
Ich nehme käsefondue, fleisch, flysch, huhn, schinken, chocolate. Nicht brot!Chocolate here is amazing! There is everything you could feast your eyes and mouth on (if you can afford it). Rum and raisin chocolate, ovaltine chocolate bars, malt, liquer chocs, praline creams, nutzi, white chocolate, beer chocolates.. You name it, its on the shelves. Amazingly, Ive been snacking on chocs non-stop cos thats the only desert I can afford here (while I gaye longingly at the florentines, glazed cookies, cheesecake, and gelati that never melts) We're always looking forward to free student dinners and tea, so that we don't blaze holes in our already penniless pockets. Lethal damage.
Ich habe grosser hunger. Das ist zu teuer!I share a sort-of penthouse apartment with 4 other people at Rosenbergweg. Its pretty near the railway station and near town and the shops, which is called Marketplatz. Streets like Multergasse and Spizergasse have nice cobbled lanes filled with shops of every sort. Pricey! But I found a store that sells female clothing at half-price! Which trust me, is very rare in St Gallen. Esprit merchandise here is exhorbitantly priced. Jackets go at CHF250, ridiculous! The bead shops (backèries or confisseries) are plentiful. Im always reminded of Rox when I see the shelves and shop windows lined with enid-blytonish snacks and sweets we both love to gush about. I miss Roxy... And Lulu too
Bis bald, Roxy! Grüezi Lulu!Went to Appenzell on Sunday, to see their annual direct democracy voting. It is like nothing Ive ever seen before. Imagine doing all your office voting and passing legislations simply by gathering all the townsfolk in the town square and having them raise their hands to vote. Thats how it went. And there are no official counters too, if there isnt a visible majority, they will continue raising their hands til something that LOOKS like a majority is reached. Amazing! Its the purest and simplest form of democracy you can hope to find.
Better get going, there is a free tea session to welcome all of us (again). Haha I only had a pathetic hot cross bun and an apple for lunch.
Grosser hunger, grosser grosser grosser! I miss everyone!
Natürlich! Auf Weidersehen!
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
2 days to D-Day!
2 days more before I fly off. Well technically just 1 day, since my flight's at 3am on Thursday morning. Almost done with the packing, but I can't shake off the feeling I've forgotten to pack some enigmatic object that will cause me great inconvenience if I arrive to find it missing. A little nervous, a little anxious.
If I could, I would pack
Rox and
Lulu into my suitcase and bring them there too. The reason I'm going for the Nyu Bash tonight is cos Roxy's going, I'm not big on the oriental theme shittums. I will miss the 2 of them muchmuchmuch! And I'm missing both their birthdays too. What would I do without my Lulu and Rox worxxxx?! :( Hahaha
And I will miss my parents too- my
mom's nagging and my
dad's listening ear. And my
sister and her endless stash of racist jokes. And my
brother. And my
dog.
And there's
Toe, whom I've just met. 2 hours is not enough! And my salseras-
Ern,
Alina,
Amanda,
Vivien (same place, different time!),
Faye, and
Sherry too. And
Charmaine, whom I didn't manage to meet up with. And as it stands, sans the trip, I already miss you, really. And
Syl*, my sugar, my morphine. And yes, the guys too-
Zhong and his egoistic banter,
Koof,
Nick-Shaun,
Ron,
YY,
Ra. And my
Neighbour, my agony uncle and my beloved older brother. I will miss
Congz too, because he pulled a disappearing act on me, and I miss him disturbing me on msn. And I will miss
Sam Chan and
Cheryl, my bestest church kakis.
Argh this is all very depressing. I know I'll just be gone for 2 months, but I'm so bad with saying goodbye. So, a very solemn picture tribute this will be.
Right.
Zhong, Meng, Ron, YY in their footie element
Russell Peter's fans- Meng, Zhong, Bob, Koof, Nick.
ilu* fairy!
One of my favourite pictures of all time- Lulu and Lala :)
My sista BarbaRA Rogan Su Longan :P
The sister and I doing the jappy thang
The brother and I- take a queue number girls!
The parents
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
Happr Bday Meng, Rox & Ra
(L-R, clockwise): Adam, Koof, Zhong, Bob, Nick, Ra, Ron (face half-hidden), YY, Lulu, me, Wendy, Rox (sitting), Weiming (behind her)Oohsa, tired tired day. I hate fibbing, and that's what I did the whole day. Oh Weiming asks too many questions and plans too many things that would have clashed with the surprise party we planned for him, Rox, and Ra. Thinking on my feet constantly is exhausting. And I had to hide it till 7pm. By 2pm, I wanted to scream at him and throw out the towel. Blockhead! :P
Would love to blog out the details, but I'm too tired to. I'm thinking Lulu will probably post something on it, so go read hers.
Lesson 1: Absolut is made to be shared, or consumed day by day. The liver cannot handle four-fifths of it downed at once. And dry and iceless too. No go.
Lesson 2: Learn to refuse slice after slice of bbq chicken, even if your boyfriend peels off the skin and wipes the fat off on your demand. A sore throat beckons. One speaks from experience.
Lesson 3: Sweet-calling a guy's name will not make him bring food to a demanding table of girls. Trust me, if it didn't work on Koof, it won't work on anyone else.
Lesson 4: Jumping around in a playground too small for you can make your arms and butt hurt.
Lesson 5: Always ask for facial wash from the host in front of his mother. So that when he remarks that you are very vain, his mom will scold him on your behalf.
Lesson 6: I don't know what I'd do without Rox and Lulu in school. A relatively short period of time since we got to know each other. But, really, there's a connection. Lala, Elfy, WoRxXxXxing away :) I lurbe choo both worxxx! Haha we piss the hell out of all the guys
Lesson 7: All this effort, for someone who means so much to you, is really painless at the end of it all.
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Friday, April 15, 2005
I get first dibs for the birthday boy!
And everything is fine and dandy now. Just as it should be. Just as it always has been, and always will be.
Happy Birthday to the person who makes up half my world.
The months just mark the milestones of something great, something beautiful.
The first- We met.
The second- We worked together. We partied. We started school.
The third- Denial. Limbo. Everything in seclusion.
The fourth-
This happened.
The fifth- Love
The sixth- Love
The seventh- Love
The eighth- Love
The ninth- Love
The 'n'th- Love. Oh you get the idea, don't you?
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The truth is rarely plain, and never simple
Have you ever loved somebody so muchIt makes you cry?Have you ever needed something so badYou can't sleep at night?Have you ever tried to find the wordsBut they don't come out right?Have you ever, have you ever?And so it was a good night. With everything that should have fallen into place, falling into place. Simple equation, isn't it? You plan what you hope for, and then what you hope for takes place. And everyone goes home happy and satisfied.
At least I thought it would be so.
Some people say it's when the two people are alone that the truest of words and the most heartfelt of thoughts are expressed. If this is so, I am torn. Why do I feel Roberta Fleck's ghostly voice on the small of my back?
Strumming my pain with his fingersSinging my life with his wordsKilling me softly with his songKilling me softly with his songYou ask me why I'm silent. I tell you I honestly don't know what to make of this. And that very simply, is everything that happened tonight. Not that I knew that 4 hours ago.
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
So tell me Thursday is near
So while most people can throw confetti because their exams end today, or can pop streamers tomorrow morning because they're free,
I am stuck with 2 more papers. Both closed-book ones.
I want to shout Wheeeeee!!! too, you know?
Premature thoughts of the movies I want to watch, the shopping I want to do, the plain hanging out, the guiltless phonecalls.. Arghhh and I have to suppress it with a self-administered pep-talk
studystudystudyit'llbeoversoonbeforeyouknowitanddon'tworryyou'llcomeoutalive. :(
The democ paper today was a killer, aching fingers and snaky words from start to end. Six whiny ladies all in a row. Tictac, my rediscovered love for little parcels of sugar. Did I mention Prof Riccardo loves to stare at us? That quizzical face, with an eyebrow cocked up should we ever meet his glance. Too disgusted with the paper to be distracted.
Tomorrow tomorrow!I love ya tomorrow-You're only a day away
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Monday, April 11, 2005
Happy (belated belated) 20th Birthday Candice!
YesBlame the idiot who stole my handphone and who made me lose all my numbers. And my lousy gingko-deprived memory, can't remember telephone numbers if my life depended on it. And my own unresourcefulness at getting the precious number.
I'm late in wishing my best friend happy birthday! Woe is me! 2 days! Well, ONE day actually, if we go by the Big Ben in London.
But I have redeemed myself. Found the number stashed away after 2 whole days of searching.. And I just gave her a birthday call :) Albeit, belated.
Happy Birthday Candice!
You're so far away, further than I'd like you to be.
30000 km-- paralyzed by how inseperable we are. And have always proved to be.
My best friend, and my heart.
Twenty has never been so beautiful,
not since you made it there.
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
Struck by randomitis
Some weekend this has been. Endless flipping of the sociology textbook has just made me get this creepy premonition that I'm going to fail the exam.. Again. Some things just don't work out, do they? I thought the socio midterm was tough, but I didn't think I was going to screw it up that badly. I thought the democracy midterm was a goner, but I got 81% in that.
People who don't study enough on normal schooldays should stop attempting to predict their grades.
And I think I'll manage to finish studying for democ in just one day! Yayyyy one more week's notes left. Makes up for the insane amount of time I've spent reading sociology. Reading, just READING. And TWC is pretty much untouched. Oohwee dead duck.
I ate a crazy amount of fish today. Tuna sandwich for lunch, fish soup for dinner. All in between mugging at the club. I feel a tad sick now. Couldn't even finish a 1 hr run at ECP just now.. Managed 40 minutes, with poor Weiming getting aching knees cos he ran so slowly with me.. Yes he's the fast male, I'm the slowpoke female :(
What a random, stupid post this is.
I haven't seen Lulu and Rox for so long! Actually I saw Lu on Thursday, but we used to see each other so often it just feels weird now that we don't meet up everyday. And roxyyy has disappeared :( It's been what, 1.5 weeks?
Exams exams be gone!... Ok back to democ now
Dancing with you in the summer rain.Soon.
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
I don't know if YOU will ever read this, but this is what I want to tell YOU
Just random surfing, and I came across one of the blogs I've totally not visited for close to a year now. Best buried in the past, best left behind.
He was writing about losing that very person he left behind, and talking about not being able to put it down even after so long. And about where all the blame is to be placed. Alright, fair enough. I might not understand why you're still unable to put the past behind, because well, we all have our own ways and time of dealing with things. That's fine, honestly.
But what is NOT fine is the judging you can do about another person and the special someone else she has in her life at present. Ask yourself before you hastily label another person "just another average joe"-- do you even know this person? Point is, you know nothing. Nothing beyond the initial face value subjectivity you've applied in your judgment of him.
And what makes you so sure that it's because of the experience of "one bad boyfriend" that makes the next one seem like the most caring and thoughtful person in the world? What's up with the finger-pointing now? It's not an issue with you, neither is it an issue with him. It's ridiculous how you can label someone you don't even know
"an opportunistic bastard". Save the labels for someone you really know. You don't even know how he and I came into being, so what gives you the right to throw labels around like you possess some superior knowledge about us that even I am not aware of? I fumed when I read that bit, and it is both repulsive and irresponsible for you to say something like that, about someone you don't even know.
I am not being defensive of him, neither am I explaining anything to you. I just feel that your judgment and assumptions that you know the process of how he and I got together are totally skewered. I understand that you might not get over things the way I do, and there are things you hold onto, which I don't. Fair enough, there's nothing wrong with that.
But please, before you hurl judgment on 'the other guy', think twice. You don't know anything about this other person, you don't know anything about the both of us. In this case, opportunity had nothing to do with it, because if it did, theoretically I should have been with 2 other people and not the current him. Because that's what happened after you. The fact remains that I was never with these 2 individuals. Neither did you and I break up because of the current him. Once again, something you know nothing about. So if he will always remain 'the other guy' to you, doesn't it show that he is someone you never knew, don't know, and will never know about?
So keep your judgment, theories and labels to yourself, and quit assuming that he came into my life because there was a void opening after you, and he seized the chance to enter. Nothing happens so smoothly, and I have not seen opportunistic bastards (quoting YOU) enter my life ever before. Not you in the past, and most certainly,
not him now. Thankyouverymuch
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Can things get any worse?
So my life has taken a turn for the worse since the last post.
My handphone was stolen on Monday. And I haven't been myself ever since. So many memories, SMS's, pictures. Plus the fact that I can't get a new phone now, cos without signing on for a new plan, the prices are ridiculous. And I've lost all my contact numbers as well. Completely incommunicado.
And what irks me out is the fact that another human being could have such complete disregard for another person's property, and the fact that handphones to most people, are more than lifelines. The cost of having to replace the phone, the pain of losing messages and memories, the trouble of being out of contact. But owells, no point harping over spilt milk.
And I'm eternally grateful to Andy, who lent me his 6510 for now. He even said it was ok for me to bring it to Switzerland, so it'll be his most well-travelled phone yet! :) Lifesaver
And my nose is leaking like a deranged faucet now. Crikey, just the best time to get sick. A week before the exams. I have the luck of a black cat under a ladder.
Well, at least through all this I've truly seen how much people care. The gratefulness and comfort for such kindess is just a wonderful feeling, through such adversity. Makes everything so much more bearable. Especially on Monday, when I felt like the star in one of those primary school compositions: "The worst day of my life". The one where you wake up late, step out of the house and it's raining cats and dogs, get splashed by a bus that doesn't even stop to pick you up, lose your handphone, quarrel with someone you care so much about... Ha yes it all happened to me. Those 24 hours never seemed longer.
'Cause on the way downI saw youAnd you saved meFrom myselfAnd I won't forgetThe way you loved meOn the way downAlmost fell right throughBut I held onto youI was so afraidOf going underBut now the weight of the worldFeels like nothing, no, nothing
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
:)
'Twas a lonely Saturday night.. Until my sister and I came up with the crazy idea of going for a midnight movie. Something we haven't done in a long time. So we bundled up the whole family and went to watch The Eye 10, all expenses charged to my dad hahaha. Dumbass show, but it was quite a good laugh. I'll never forget the guy clinking the chopsticks on his teeth!
And before that we went for a good dinner at Pow Sing's, this little gem opposite ChompChomp. Owells, not really
LITTLE. cos it was so so crowded! Bursting at the seams! The chicken rice there was
sensational, though I'm still looking for a place that sells good chicken rice balls in Singapore, the ones you can find in KL. Goodshit! And the fried tofu was amazing. I finished my rice for once! Wiped it clean, not a grain in sight :)
Been trying to mug. But really, it's been a futile and thankless attempt. I've got the attention span of a complimentary thumbdrive. Arghhhh 1 day and only 1 sociology chapter. And my sustenance: sinful nuggets of dark chocolate, centres overflowing with frozen mint filling and soft strawberry cream. Ooh babyyyy!
Celine's right, who could live without chocolate? I've made it my personal quest to eat chocolate at least once a day. Though knowing me, consuming more than that shouldn't be a problem at all. So I like dark chocolate, with mint or strawberry fillings, not too wild about liquer chocolates. Don't like white or milk chocolate, though I make an exception for Diam caramels! :) So yeah HINT to everyone! Bring on the choco-loving orgasms please?
On a sour noteYou don't know any of this.Do you?
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