Tuesday, August 09, 2005

It should be me, it should be you

So the past four days have been completely draining. I don't think I managed to wake up without puffy eyes on any one day.

You could say I was an old blind woman, targetted by heartless thieves who stole my walking stick and guidedog. That's how lost and crushed I was.

The silver lining- Drea for constantly being there for me. Syl for her rationality even though she was away. Bob for his shoulder to cry on. My sister for the beauty of her sms's. Zhong for bringing some laughter.

The Crying Game. Moment after recurring moment, this little blue ditty found its way into my head:
First there are kisses
Then there are sighs
And then before you know where you are
You're sayin' goodbye

Words like Memories, Past, Cherish, Treasure, Almost and Uncertain sent a cold chill down my spine. Foreboding was imminent in phrases like I will never forget you, I always thought we could make it.. Cryptic words from both our mouths. As for those that came from me, they simply got spitted out like the unwitting spray of an aged fountain cherub.

It wasn't easy, it really wasn't. But we've come back, back to where we belong. With a 17-year-old's wisdom, my sister's sms was a wakeup call: yeah but love is selfish and love is blind. it's not just a phrase it's reality too..n u two went through so much together. is it worth just throwing it all away? if u two really love each other... there's nothing you cant resolve.

I think I know where we're headed, and what exactly has to change. For the both of us. We want this to work, don't we baby?

As I look into your eyes I see the sunrise
The light behind your face helps me realise

Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine

I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me
Forever


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